Jul. 10th, 2008

[fic] Ein Sof: Hod

Title: Hod
Author: joudama
Fandom: Final Fantasy 7 (Crisis Core)
Rating: worksafe, yes; brainsafe, maybe
Warnings: Imagery from Jewish mysticism. Trust me, that has to be warned for. Hooboy.
Word count: 884
Summary: He was the good one no matter what, it seemed.
Prompt: Angeal: Good Guy - He was the good one, no matter what, it seemed.

Hod: Majesty

Jul. 1st, 2008

[fic] Ein Sof: Aharit ha-yamim

Title: Aharit ha-yamim
Fandom: Final Fantasy 7
Rating: PG
Warnings: Worksafe! But maybe not so very keeping-brain-unbent-safe. ^^;;
Word count: 1,235
Summary: In the end, he would be the one who stood in the flames of the end of days, the planet at his feet.
Prompt: Sephiroth/Aeris - healing - Lights will guide you home/And ignite your bones/And I will try to fix you.
Author's Notes )

Aharit ha-yamim (kinkfest, yay!)

Mar. 29th, 2008

[Fic] Ein Sof - Da'at (3/12)

Fic Title: Ein Sof
Chapter Title: Da'at
Rating: R for vague smuttiness
Word count: 1,118 (excluding A/N)
Summary: Reunion will make you whole.
The A/N. )


( Reunion will make you whole. )

Mar. 28th, 2008

[Fic] Ein Sof - Shevirat ha-kelim (2/12)

Title: Shevirat ha-kelim
Author: stopthatgirl7
Rating: R
Word count: 1,713 (not including A/N)
Summary: Rejoice, for you shall be the ruler of this world.
A/N: This is the prequel, of sorts, to Malkhut.

*puts on new Joudama Explains It All hat* Now we have to look at Lurianic Kabbalah and things start getting all "…bwuh?" Under Lurianic Kabbalah, God filled all, leaving no room for creation. In order to create the universe, God had to pull back and create a space where He wasn't there. This pulling-away is known as tzimtzum. God pulled back in stages, and those "stages" became the sephirot, which were to be vessels to emanate the divine back into the space He had pulled away from. Only, there was a wee little problem. God had these vessels all lined up in a nice, tidy little row, and He let His light shine...but the sephirot were kind of not unified as set aspects yet and thus were unstable, so when the energy of God went through them, the first three sephirot were displaced so they were no longer in a line, and the other seven? *points to fic title*

"Shevirat ha-kelim" means "the breaking of the vessels" and refers to the moment when the lower seven of the first set of vessels, the kelim, that were to house the sephirot shattered into 288 "sparks," which scattered and fell from their position. The shattered vessels were replaced, but the shattered fragments, animated by a residue of god's creative power, remained and conflicted with the aspects of the sephirot they replaced. *takes off Joudama Explains It All hat and wanders off in search of aspirin*

Oh, and a shout-out has to go to [info]chibirisuchan, because she gave me an interesting way of looking at the whys of the shattering that I can't say here because that would be spoiler! Hee!

( Follow the fake-cut to the fic, yay! )

Mar. 21st, 2008

Ein Sof masterlist

Because I've had the feeling for a while the kinkfest challenges I took were going to grow into something, and after writing "Malkhut," I realized I really wanted to keep going with it past the three kinkfest fic, because there was so much there and it was something that was going to challenge me. Plus, research. Lots and lots of research. ^^;;;

And I need something to work on for the days when my brain is going on overdrive. TTYNKAP is my main FF7 project, but me and my ADHD can't focus on jack for long, so ShinraMart is for when I need crack, and Ein Sof is for when I'm in massive overthinking mode. XD

All of these stories are based on the Kabbalah and the Tree of Life. It's mainly focused on Lurianic Kabbalah, mainly because that's where my research has led me. Yay!


Title: Ein Sof
Fandom: FF7
Pairings/Characters: Sephiroth/Cloud, Sephiroth/Kadaj, Loz/Yazoo/Kadaj, et. al

Ein Sof. )

[Fic] Ein Sof - Malkhut (1/12)

Fic Title: Ein Sof
Chapter Title: Malkhut
Rating: PG! ...ish
Word count: 2,112 (Oh, hey, cool!)
Summary: He is a vessel, a shell made only to hold the Word.
A/N: If something doesn't quite make sense yet, don't worry, it will. This is brainbendy anyway, so don't worry about it at all--I wrote this first anyway, after all. And besides, anything based off Kabbalistic imagery shouldn't completely make sense at first anyway. If it does, you're doing it wrong.

*puts on Joudama Explains It All hat* The title of this fic comes from the sephira Malkhut, which is the lowest point on the Tree of Life, and is according to some Kabbalistic thinking, the point above the Qliphoth (The Tree of Death, or the "shadow" of the Tree of Life, formed when the first imperfect vessels shattered because they couldn't contain the Word of God.) Highest above Malkhut in the Tree of Life is the highest of all the sephirot, Keter, which is only below the source of the sephirot, Ein Sof. Keter is pure consciousness, and is the point that crystallizes out of the Ein Sof, and commences the process of emanation of the Word.

But the funny thing of it is, Keter may be the highest sephira, but everything from the world below--namely, our reality--has to be filtered up through Malkhut to reach Keter, and anything coming from Keter can only be felt by those on the planes below when filtered and interpreted through Malkhut (which is why Malkhut is associated with the mouth and the power of speech.) *takes off Joudama Explains It All hat and sets it on fire*

( Follow the fake cut to kinkfest! )

Oh, and? GOD, I hate writing Sephiroth. For some reason, I just can't get a handle on him. GAH.