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May. 4th, 2012


Thagirion 2 is now at 6,800 words, and 13 of the 16 pages it's clocked in at so far are actually all LINEAR. Go, me! I'm going to try to get up to 7,000 words before calling it a night.

I do worry it's a bit boring and repetitive, though - it's all character development and interaction. ^^;;

Oct. 27th, 2011


I'm going to informally do NaNoWriMo this year, and my goal is to finish Harrow Children. ^^;;;

Wish me luck, y'all. I haven't been doing much writing because I haven't had much time, but danggit, I'm gonna try to make some. I need to finish SOMETHING, and HC is so dang close. I also want to go back and finish up more of A Hope in Hell, since I finally have my DVD of the King and the Clown again.

...Don't even ask me about TTYNKAP. The next chapter scares me and I've been avoiding it. Also, I need to get back into Chinese more before I tackle it, and I've been doing so much Korean lately that my Chinese-brain has atrophied. Which is why AHIH has priority over it (plus, I want to write more Park. I really like Park a lot for some reason.)

But first, yeah, I want to write more Zack-Tifa angst. >XD;;; Zack is kind of my new chew toy, and I'm not ready to switch over and make Tifa my chew toy, which I'd need for Thagirion.

A snippit of me using Zack for a chew toy in HC. XD;;; )

Oct. 25th, 2011


I started poking around on some older fic today, since I figured a Thagirion break might be good. So I worked a bit on the next chapter of Harrow Children and on some of A Hope in Hell.

...Part 3 of Harrow Children is already twenty-nine pages long. But the beginning only has 5 pages before it starts fragmenting into incomplete scenes and thumbnail sketches. The the combined last two parts of A Hope in Hell are 30 pages.

Why can I never write anything short? *sob*

Apr. 19th, 2011

Ahahahaha, this is gonna be looooong...

I have 17 pages done of Thagirion, the new fic.

There is not one single completed scene within this 17 pages (although admittedly, part of why it's so long is because there's a lot of doubling. Y'all will see. It's all a part of the Murakami-inspired memory themes). There are two bits of completed exposition, and that's IT.

The first one, I put up a bit before. Here's the second, in the same "Hojo is creepy" vein. *throws hands in the air* It's all set-up, OMFG.

Ahahahaha, exposition with a teeny bit of plot just for plot set up. )

Apr. 5th, 2011

LOL, oh jeez

Every realize something you're writing is very, very fucked up?

*dies* That's what I'm realizing as I write more of that charity fic I'm working on. It's already ten pages, but a lot of that is notes.

Any time you write something that has references to both Primo Levi and Shiro Ishii (...if Hojo is not based off Ishii, I'll actually be kind of shocked), you know shit is fucked. D:

Randomly, I'm also working on translating a story I wrote--In Bloom--into Japanese. Which is ridiculously hard. Something ironic given that a Japanese friend of mine who read it said the story "feels very Japanese." LOL, I'm too tied to the English language and how it works. My friend is helping me with the translation, and she's about ready to tear her hair out because it's so hard to translate. Our chat logs when we work on it are out there. XD

Apr. 3rd, 2011

Heh ^^;;

The Tifa fic I'm working on is somehow turning into a psychological horror piece. With elements of noppera-bo and bird-footed demons from European Jewish mythology, plus a random allusion to Unit 731. This on top of Kabbalah and Murakami.

See, this is what happens when I try to avoid repeating myself thematically and overshoot big time. XD;;;;

Apr. 1st, 2011


I'm currently working on the fic prompt I got for help_japan (holy wow, I wasn't expecting it to go for as much as it did), but I'm a bit stuck on something, and I wanted other people's opinion--I need to bounce ideas of someone so I can figure out which track to take. Basically, I had a track chosen, and then I read a line in 1Q84 yesterday that really hit me and opened up a whole other possible direction to go. Both tracks would have the same plot, but the whole focus and subtext would be radically different--so until I can figure out which way to go, I'm kind of at an impasse. Basically, I can't even begin, because the theme of the subtext will determine how I write the whole thing.

Since there are a lot of writers here, so you all know how much theme matters, I figured I'd toss it out for y'all's ideas.

The prompt and the possible themes. )

So, yeah. Can y'all see why I'm completely torn and why I'd need to figure out which theme to use before I can even start? What do y'all think? Both subthemes are probably going to be there on some level, because both of them are in my head, but I have to pick a main one because that's going to determine the overall direction of the fic.

Also, Murakami is so awesome. There's a reason why he's my favorite author. *hugs 1Q84*

Feb. 18th, 2011

Yup. New fic is disturbing.

Yup. New fic is disturbing me. I should not be surprised by this but hey.

The fic takes place during the Fort Tamblin mission of CC.

Chímaira. )


And that's, like, not even the most disturbing, that's just the beginning of the psychological WTF. This is Angeal's defection, after all, and it's going to cover when Gen finally snaps. So, yeah. Fucked up, and hey, NO PRESSURE on me or nothin'. *headdesk* I'm stupid, though, and am writing this only from Angeal's POV, so argh, SO HARD to write Gen's snapping, because it's someone watching him snap, which is an entirely different thing and an entirely different set of "unreliable narrator" issues, because he's guessing at what's going on in Gen's head, versus my knowing what's going on in his head, and it's a balancing act to make sure Angeal picks up on enough but not too much to where it's unrealistic for him to know, plus he has to make mistakes with the visual and vocal cues he's getting, because he's, y'know, not a mind-reader and also in full-on unreliable narrator-ville himself because, oh, hey, major life shock just happened!

...why do I do this to myself again? XD;;;

Feb. 3rd, 2011

Hisashiburi da ne. ^^;;

I'm trying to get back into writing a bit. XD

Free time, whazzat?

But, yeah. Trying. XD;;;

Here's the mental image that got me back to working on something:
Yes, this is for the song 'I Want You,' so this is vaguely, er, unhealthy. )

Oct. 5th, 2010

HC progress

Current state of HC:

Word count: 8830
Page count: 22
Rough percent done: 25% (ahahahaha, I'm being so generous, more like 15% 'cause I only just started the lead-in to the whole 'plot' thing.)
Random snippit: This is probably going to be the dumbest thing I've ever done, Cloud thought flatly to himself.

Which is why you better do it before you think better of it, a cheerfully conversational voice in his head thought back in response, and he decided it had a point.

Sep. 16th, 2010

Oh, maaaaaan~ XD;;;

It's my lunch break, so I'm working a little bit on HC. I was fiddling around with some things because I realized the timing with how I had some things was off, and started work on a new scene I was inserting to make things balance out time-wise.

And then I blinked and went, "Oh, shit!" as I realized a filler scene I was making to stall one character had just gotten really important, and that said character was about to do something really, really, really stupid in a moment of loner emotasticness (lol, yeah, just gave away who it was there).

I love when major plot points come out of nowhere. ^^;; So yeah, now doing a lot more shifting around, because some half-assed scenes I had started now are being slotted into fitting with the actual story that's decided now would be a good time to show up. XD;;;;;

Oh, man, the first part of this chapter is so heavy, oh man. I apologize in advance. I'm going to need to work on a comedy fic soon to make up for it. XD;;;

I'm looking forward to getting the JLPT out of the way just so I can do other things instead of feeling like I need to spend all my free time studying. x_X

Sep. 9th, 2010

Opinion time!

Ok, y'all--I rarely ask for opinions on things I'm working on, but I'm working on the next chapter of HC, and I'm currently at odds at myself over something, so I'm asking opinions. (And don't worry, there's nothing spoiler here at all XD;;)

Basically, I'm trying to decide if I include POV from the triplets--so whether or not I introduce a whole new subthread for the whole thing, or whether or not I do like the movie did and just have them as The Big Bad without any real showing of their side of things. What happens in the fic will progress the same, it's just there will be a much more different feel from the movie because of a new POV and there would, by default, be a lot more scenes for me to write. I'm not averse to writing them--I just have to figure out whose POV of the three to use--but I'm kinda torn because it would shift the way they're portrayed. If this makes any sense.

There were scenes with them in the movie of just them, of course, but those were used to show how they were a threat (which the last scene of the last chapter of HC did), but if I really go into using their perspective, well, y'all know me, I like to get into the meaty psychological brainbits and play connect the dots--great for characterization, not so great for Evil Bad Juggernaut type things. ^^;;;

So, to wind up: which do y'all think is better, the "Evil that Just Is that Our Heroes Must Defeat," or the "My Issues, Let Me Show You Them" kind of portrayal of them?

And for the record, the next chapter is already 20 pages, and I laugh at any thought that that might even kind of equal close to done. I've got the very beginning, the very end, some random middle, a bunch of notes, and Tifa telling Zack to put on some pants. XD

Jul. 29th, 2010

I don't get it

I don't get it, but there seems to be something about me having a fever that makes my fic brain decide to start jumping up and down and yelling at me to write. *throws hands in the air*

I wrote about a page of the last part of HC, and my fic brain really wants to work on it, despite me constantly opening the next chapter of TTYNKAP and going, "Dude, c'mon, now," at it. I fully blame me listening to Poets of the Fall lately, because I swear, so many of their songs are total HC Zack songs.

Like the song I'm listening to now, Heal My Wounds--"Don't fall down when it's time to arise/No one else can heal your wounds/Here and now, with our dreams realized/Would you choose still more time to do/Don't fall down, 'cause I need you to rise/No one else can heal my wounds."

So yeah, between the fever making me wonky and the music is screaming "Broken Zack [and Cloud, and Tifa] trying to act fine!" at me, looks like writing is going to win out over "cleaning my apartment" or "laying in bed and hating life." *headdesk*

On the plus side, I finally figured out a way to actually work in a major plot point I'd needed to but had no idea to up until now. Thanks, 101-degree fever yesterday! *headdesk*

I'm gonna pop in some Tifa-themed songs since part 3 is Tifa's part, since the Poets seem to work just as well for L'il Miss Shattered Storybook Endings, too. It's very telling that the one Poets song that set off "TIFA!" bells was "Carnival of Rust" (look up the lyrics to see why HC Tifa has...issues, for this to match her so well.) ^^;;

Apr. 22nd, 2010


So, I started writing again after weeks of "Oh god gotta pack gotta study" panic.

Of course, my ficbrain wanted to write...nothing I have on the list of "Get to it already." No, no, no, it decided it wanted to work on In This Together. And not the fic that halfway done, oh no. The fic I swore I'd never write--the Infamous Piano Fic.

The killer is, my brain firmly rejects writing porn, but it seems that it's very, very happy to write Hilariously Awkward Sex. So this is turning into a comedy fic.


I love writing teen!Gen and Angeal. The jokes write themselves. XDDDDDD

Feb. 25th, 2010


I've been feeling under the weather lately, which is why I haven't written any of the Hojo drabbles yet; sorry. It's also why my last areyougame fic is late; it needs major editing and I've been too blaaaah to do it.

On the plus side, when I was walking home this week, I had a "Eureeka!" moment with TTYNKAP. One I very much needed. It seems like a small thing--I finally figured out Auntie Qian's "theme song" in my head, but once I did, oh man, did the stopper come off and I got ideas for how The Big Scene in there is going to go. A bunch of little details came in, and I've filled in a bunch of notes in my draft--so once I finish the areyougame fic and knock out some of those Hojo drabbles, I'm going full-steam-ahead on TTYNKAP.

For anyone wondering what Auntie Qian's song is, it's "Fa ru xie" (Hair Like Snow) by Jay Chou. Watch the vid on youtube, and put that in the hopper for everyone trying to figure out what's going on. Mwa.

I also get such random snippits of happy-ending!'verse HC fic. I swear, happy-ending!Yazoo is waving at me and driving poor Zack and Tifa out of their minds. I think I'm going to have to write a White Day fic with him...all of them, just because trying to explain a holiday based around love to those three is a comedy goldmine waiting to be explored.


Jan. 6th, 2010

Back into the writing swing of things...

I'm trying to get back into writing, since 2009 was pretty much a bust in that department. Plus, finishing part 2 of HC really got me going, so now I want to write more. I worked a bit on part 3 of HC, but I'm kinda OMFG DRAMA'd out from that. >XD And am working on something lighter--In This Together. XD

The chronologically second fic in the series is fairly close to done, but of course that's not the one my brain wants to work on--I woke up this morning with thoughts of Gen and Angeal in the army and did a bit of them joining SOLDIER, and my brain really wants to work on Angeal Meeting Sephiroth. >XD And I worked on a fic right before they leave Banora for Midgar.

Yup, it's brainless fluff time for my brain. >XD My ficbrain pooped itself out with the latest part of HC, and now is like, "thinking is haaaaaaard" >XD;;;

In This Together snippit! )

Dec. 27th, 2009

So close, yet so far away~

OMFG, the next chapter of Harrow Children is so close to being done--and I mean, seriously close--four more scenes, two of which are part of the same scenario just broken up for flow, and only one scene that's not at least begun.

The current word count is 27,473, so I'm estimating it'll get to about 33,000 words by the time I'm done. So, yeah--I am very, very close.

...unfortunately, it's so long that it broke NeoOffice's web layout view, and since I ABHOR superfluous white space, I had to switch to Bean to write *grumble*. It, eh heh, also means it's so long my brain shorts out when I try to do any kind of proofreading. Which, eh heheh, might be slightly problematic... ^^;;

Dec. 23rd, 2009


Part Two of Harrow Children just hit the 25,000 word count. I...I can actually see the end coming up. *cheers*

Dec. 10th, 2009

Dear fic brain,

Dear fic brain,

It's great that you want to work on Harrow Children. It is.


Can you want to work on it when I'm not, y'know, AT WORK? Or not when I'm at lunch but a good ten minute walk away from my computer? Thanks. I know, I know, I'm not giving you much time to work with, since my little spare time has been eaten up by trying to not be a giant fatass and starting to prep NOW for the JLPT1, but still.

And also, could you want to maybe work on part two instead of part three? I know writing the love-hate-dash of UST relationship between Zack and Tifa is fun and all (especially this one scene, oh MAN), but I really DO need to write the boring plot bits in part 2 so I can get to the interesting interpersonal stuff.

Five more pages, no work done since lunch (thank god we're in the process of moving at work and so everyone is packing instead of working, and I finished packing this morning), and no love,


Nov. 18th, 2009

The horrifying realization

There comes a point when you have a horrifying realization of just how big of a nerd you really are.

I was putzing around with the Ultimania author's notes for A Hope in Hell, and I had mentioned the Divine Comedy (because I was talking about the Chimera, and how the Angeal!boss in Crisis Core matches the way Dante described a chimera, and that was were I got my idea for "The Griffin and the Chimera" from). Which made me look on line for the first few stanzas, because it mentioned being "lost" from the "straight way" and that tied in with how I'm doing Angeal in it. And I realized how well the first few lines tied in to the fic, even down to the "a dark wood...savage, dense, and harsh" and how the name of the city, Daerimmun, means "the gate to the great forest."

And then went, "...I can SO use this! >:D" and decided to reread the Inferno. For a fic. One I'm not even working on right now, since the next chapter of HC is a priority.

So....yup, I'm a neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerd~.

Who is going to bed, because it's 1 am, but will be curling up with my copy of the Divine Comedy. :D

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