joudama scribbling

Time spent: 40
Calories burned: 185
Current BMI: 28.7

I realized today that I'm nearly at the lowest point weight-wise I've been since I started--the lowest was the first night I went out clubbing and somehow dropped well over a kilo (so much the game warned me that losing that much weight at once isn't likely to stay off--which was true because it was all water weight, and came back a day or so later), and I'm only a couple hundredths of a BMI points off from that (it was 28.66). I'm also back to under 85 kilo. Considering I started out just shy of 89 kilo, yeah. Not bad in two months. :D

I fly back home Saturday, and my fervent hope was to have lost ten pounds--so just over 4.5 kilo--before I did. I haven't quite reached that point, but I'm close enough that it really doesn't matter that much to me that I didn't hit a random numerical goal.

I'll admit that I'm worried about going home for other reasons than just going home--that's going to be a week and a half of pretty much no exercise plus a LOT of fattening American food. Can't be helped and all, but ARGH, will it suck to go backwards after all the ups and downs and work to get where I am now.

Also, because I know myself, I'm making myself work out BEFORE I pop in FF13. XD

Time spent: 33 min
Calories burned: 127
Current BMI: 28.8

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm slacking. I didn't work out yesterday, since I had been dancing for hours the night before at a club, and today I had to make myself start (I usually don't have to), I only half-heartedly laughed at the male trainer (but the "Dork!"s that came out unbidden were whole-heartedly, because AHAHAHAHAHA, DORK), then I got a slight cramp in my side when I was doing the hula-hoop thing, which is a first. So I figured I'm tired and should rest. I did, however, do 30 jackknives (I'm kinda proud of myself; I'm getting a lot better at them; yay, muscle!) and did the evil hold-yourself-up-by-your-arms thing I failed at every other time. I managed it, even though GOD, it was hard, and I'm sure I'll feel it later. I did those first, which is why I think my abs and sides were like, "...eff you, we're done." XD;;;

So, yeah, I made myself do 30 minutes, and now it's ramen time, since I'm le hungry.

Time spent: 1:13
Calories burned; 305
BMI: 28.9

I did more than I planned, mainly because I thought I was a couple minutes away from the "piggy bank" that keeps track of your time and calories turning gold, but nope--not thirty hours; it must be forty. ):

The male trainer? Still a DOOOOOOOOOORK. *dies* The little thumbs up never ceases to be wonderfully lame. >XD

I had intended to take it kind of easy today, heh. I mainly did yoga and weight training, though.

I was wearing a pair of shorts I, duh, haven't worn since summer (the style now is shorts, boots, and thick stockings, go fig), and wow, yeah, major difference. They used to be tight on the thighs when I was sitting down, and they totally aren't anymore. So this is yay. I also should be able to bump up to 30 jackknifes soon. I'm thinking next week I'll try it.

The obstacle course still taunts me.

Time spent: 1:02
Calories burned: 286
BMI: 29.09

So I booted up the Wii, decided, "I'm gonna do some yoga today. I feel kinda bleh." I went to the yoga menu, pulled up the crescent moon pose, then went, "Wait, what the--?" at the male trainer being on the screen.

"I'm doing it instead of the other trainer!" he proclaimed, and I went, "OK, what? First it changed hairstyles on me, then genders? Whaaa-?" and rolled with it. Or tried. But it was too weird seeing a guy with no ass and oversized thighs on the screen. I figured, though, hey, one day of a change.

No, it was just one exercise, then it went back to the chick. And I was like, "Hunh, just when I got used to the idea of using the guy trainer." And decided, "Oh, why not? If nothing else, it'll help with with understanding guys speaking Japanese," and went into the settings and told it to use the male trainer, and popped open an easy yoga pose.

Y'know, I don't think you're supposed to point and laugh at the trainer, but I did. Literally.

The male trainer? DOOOOOOOOOORK. I was yelling, "Dude, you are waaaay too perky!" at the screen when he was giving praise (I swear, he sounded like Koyasu Takehito's in seriously-need-of-ritalin little brother with ADHD or something), then I got four stars and he gave me this DORKTASTIC thumbs up (the woman claps, so you know) and I literally pointed and laughed at the screen. I got as far as, "Dude, if you start clapping--" with a warning finger waggle when he gave the thumbs up, and I swear, I lost it. I went from you-better-not finger wag to POINTING AND LAUGHING.

And it wasn't that first time, oh, no, it was every time, because it never stopped being laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaameriffic. >XD

I honestly thing that every time he went, "Gambatte!" I went, "Pffffftahahaha~ *snerk*" Which was really unhelpful in the middle of exercises. >XD I got some pretty crap scores today all because I was too busy laughing my head off at the trainer than to keep my balance. And ohhh, it was so worth it.

I did more muscle training that I normally do just so I could laugh at the dork. My arms currently want to fall off and die, but yeah, worth it. >XDDDD

Time spent: 1:05
Calories burned: 300
BMI: 29.09

Yeah, gained weight technically, but I am caring not one jot because my clothes are looser and it's also ~the mooooooost wonderful tiiiiiiiiiime of the moooooooonth~, so yeah, whaaaaatever.

Although I am looking askance at how my body seems to really and truly like staying at a BMI of about 29. I mean, honestly now. :p

The obstacle course is still pwning me and hard. ARGH. I was, once again, SO CLOSE. asdfghjkl;bastard.

I also tried the golf bit in the Training+ section and was so bored out of my skull that I will never do it again, not unless I'm feeling uuuuugh and need to do something completely non-taxing.

I got a "perfect dance" for the first time with the step dancing thing, so GO ME~. I then proceeded to completely botch the march thing, though. XD

Today was also mainly muscle training--I figure next week I'll be a masochist and move up to 30 jackknifes. And try the pushups again and hate life. XD;;

Time spent: 1:08
Calories burned: 290
BMI: 28.66 <--I do not trust this worth a sweet goddamn. XD

Yesterday's Wii Fit Challenge~ started to happen. I changed into my workout clothes, turned it on, winced as I remembered, oh yeah, I needed to buy batteries for the Wiimote while I was out!, figured it could make it one more day, and did the weighing and balance stuff.

...and then, before I could push the A button to tell it to save, the screen went black with ominous red letters, and it informed me it had lost connection with the Wiimote, and to reconnect the Wiimote and press A.

The batteries were so dead it would not turn on long enough for me to save. So I had to change out of my workout clothes and messy workout bun into real clothes and bun made with my actually looking in a mirror, and traipsing to the convenience store just to buy batteries. It took me about twenty, twenty-five minutes total, and I grumpily decided that walking time was my exercise for the day, and saved. It gave me a BMI of 29.9, so I was like, "OK, fine."

I don't trust today's mainly because it was another "forget to eat" days--I spent all morning playing Hikari no 4 Senshi and forgot to eat, aside from a breakfast bar. I stuffed myself full of ramen later (I'm going to make more after my bath; eating late being bad for you be damned), but yeah. That BMI is so full of lies. XD

I was quite vexed by the damn pata-pata chicken game (I was Right. At. The. Goal! when time ran out--I started yelling, "NO! I was SO CLOSE! NO!!") and the obstacle course. Both of them like giving me the finger, but one day, oh, one day, I will emerge victorious. XD

Time spent: 38m
Calories burned: 185
BMI: 29.10
Feeling: tired

I am le tired tonight, so short workout. And since I'm off meds but my throat is still acting up (I'm gonna make an appointment again before I leave for vacation), I decided pushing it too much would be a bad idea. On the plus side, I did the really high level punching game--it's ten minutes long, so my arms kind of want to fall off...but I did better at it on my first try than I have the other punching games--I got a four stars. I think it's because it's twice the tempo as the first one, so it's a lot faster--I tend to rush, so the faster tempo worked for me. :D

Also, the trainer's hairstyle went back to the old one. Eh? :(

Now to call my mom (about my trip back to the US) then hit the bath. I learned the hard way, that i I don't take a nice, long soak after I work out, I hurt, hurt, hurt the next day.

1:06
275
29.14

I know I should weigh myself in the mornings, to avoid the "my belly is full of food" thing, but yeah right. XD

Anyway, yeah, my belly is still omfg SO FULL from the Korean ramen and real Korean kimchee my friend M stuffed my full of that I'm frankly amazed that I can even move. It all feels like a leaden in my stomach, so color me unshocked and my weight going up. XD I feel plumped. XD;;;

On the plus side, though, Korean instant ramen is pure win for spiciness, and the hottie working at the Starbucks we went to (I'm drinking so much coffee now, OMFG. Blame M and the yumminess of Doutour's caramel marron latte and Starbuck's gingerbread latte) made the trip out to study with her totally worth it. :D

The obstacle course still vexes me. I'm getting closer--I was yelling, "So close! I was SO CLOSE!" at the screen because I was a jump away from the end of the level I was on. *screams* I would have tried it again, but the game decided, "Oh, hey, it's tomorrow, so let's erase your time and calories burned! :D"

Yeah. ,|,,

Also, totally random, my "trainer"'s hairstyle changed. I was doing jackknifes and all of a sudden went, "Wait a minute, her hair wasn't pulled back before, was it?" and was so confused and trying to puzzle it out when I was coming up on the exercises and cold see the screen, until I realized yeah, the game had randomly given her a new hairstyle. I thought maybe she always had that hairstyle during the jackknives and I never noticed before because I was usually working on not dying during those. But when I jumped over to yoga, I realized, yeah--new hairstyle.

This is why I like Nintendo--the little touches. Last month, there were fall leaves blowing around one of the menu screens, and this month it's snowflakes. And if you "poke" your Mii on that menu, it trips the hell out. You poke its feet and it starts stomping and jumping; poke its belly and it flails, and poke its head and it starts trying to swat it away like a fly. XD

Time spent: 1:03
Calories burned: 280
BMI: 28.90

I skipped yesterday because I wasn't breathing well and also, yeah, I was too ragey for it. ^^;; But I definitely was going to exercise today. My throat is still kinda bleh, which is why I was, I thought, completely off on the rhythmic boxing thing--so imagine my shock when I got my second highest score.

I also got a "Perfect march!" on the marching-band game--a major step up from one time when I did it and the cable from the wiimote to the nunchuck thwapped me in the face and knocked my glasses off (I got l33t m4d SK1LLZ, y0~). I also tried the obstacle course, again...three times. There is something to be said for sheer, unbridled determination to not lose. I finally figured out how to work with the ice, so that's a major hurdle cleared, and I am very, very close to beating the bastard of a game.

I also noticed that jackknifes do not kill me as much as they did a week ago--oh, I still laugh at the game for even thinking I'm ready for even thirty, much less "challenging" the trainer--AHAHAHAHA, no--but I got up to fifteen before I wanted to die. Before, it was around ten. So, yeah, much improvement. I might bump it up next week. :)

The big thing, though, was my weight went down, quite a bit--I'm finally under 29 for my BMI! No more giri-giri obese! Just firmly overweight!--and it doesn't feel like the times when I would look at the lower BMI it spat out and go, "You lie like a lying thing. LIES!" The last few days, I have actually had that same "getting into better shape" feeling I had when I first started. So this lets me know my reassessment was right, and I'm on the right track. I do want to add more yoga in, but I think that's going to wait until the obstacle course is no longer rubbing my face in the dirt. XD

Time spent: 1:09
Calories burned: 324
BMI: 29.2
Feeling: HULK SMASH AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRR

The obstacle course is a punk ass bitch. Do you hear me? A PUNK AS BITCH.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGH.

I beat the beginner level--I started it, yelled, "I am going to make you my bitch today!" and proceeded to pwn it. No, it wasn't as high as the first and only other time I beat it, but this time I beat it at a walk and felt confident I could do it again, unlike the first time, which was sheer, unbridled luck and panic.

Since I had beaten it, it gave me the option of the advanced level.

PUNK. ASS. BIIIIIIIIITCH.

*froth at mouth*

I am not even kidding, I was screaming at the game, calling it every filthy name in the book...and calling it filthy names because it obviously calculated the calories burned based on the "meters" you had progressed, not how much you did, because there was no effin' way I only burned eight calories one particularly bitchtastic time.

And what, you may be wondering, make the advanced level that much more of an evil bitch of a game?

The ice.

That's right, there are points where the platform is ice, and your Mii will slide right off if the next platform you need to jump for is out of position. All you can do is watch as your Mii slides right off the edge, because your other choice is to commit suicide and leap into the sea.

I was literally making infuriated screaming sounds that sounded like they should be coming out of the Hulk.

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGE.

And to top it all off, I redid my BMI reading (because I was stuffed full of coffee and bibimbap when I got home) and when it finished the "balance" measures it told me..."you should do the obstacle course to help you!"

Thank god you can't really rage quit the Wii Fit, or else I so would have. XD

Time spent: 1:04
Calories burned: 289
BMI: 29.07

This game is a dirty, rotten cheater! ARGH!

As an addendum to the "likes to kill you by making you plummet to your death" thing. I learned today in the CHEATING ROTTEN obstacle course game that it also likes to flatten your Mii like a pancake by making logs roll over it.

And I cry FOUL FOUL FOUL to some of my Mii getting clobbered by a pendulum; I said to jump, dangit. And WTFBBQ to me supposedly losing 1.1 kilo in a day. A day I spent stuffing my face with grits. I'm going to chalk that up to me having not had dinner, since the aforementioned grits left me stuffed to the gills. I didn't even get hungry until, of course, two minutes after I started exercising (I popped a sweet potato in the oven and let it bake while I was exercising. Mmmm, sweet potato.)

Also, my arms and legs want to fall off and diiiiie. *death*

Time spent: 1:00
Calories burned: 287
BMI: 29.44

Yup, weight went up again, but I ate a Southern Breakfast (tm)--cheesy grits and real sausage and ate ramen for dinner; this is not a shock. It's also not that upsetting, since I'm viewing things as a restart--I slacked off, I did exercises that were ineffective, and so now I'm starting over. I'm not going to worry unless I start going up for a week straight.

The cycling game can blow me. I'm not even kidding. I wandered around the area trying to find the last two flags, then said "Fuck this," and quit the game. I had been doing it for about fifteen minutes, and it counted none of that time. asdfghjkl;

I'll do the short course; the long courses can SUCK IT. GAH.

( Also, Wii Fit has a perverse love of making your Mii die spectacularly )

Exercise Time: 1:05
Calories burned: 278
BMI: 29.34 (boooo~. But it's no one's fault but my own. ^^;; And I'm still lower than when I started out, so no complaints yet--ask me in a week)

Yeah, I gained weight back, but looking at the last week, I can totally understand why. With the total pigging out that was last weekend and last night (it was a 3-day weekend and friends came to visit last weekend, and yesterday I went out with people to the yummiest Indian place ever and ate far too much cheese naan) and the sheer lack of exercising I've been doing (I didn't do any Wii Fit the whole time I had people here, or the day after because my living room was still set up for having guests and not for me to be able to exercise, so I didn't do anything but walking for five days [busted Balance Board and also laziness] and yesterday [I was so stuffed my stomach cried at the thought], yeah, I can see why. I kinda winced and went, "Yeah, yeah, I get it. No more slacking off."

So to make up for it, I made sure to put in 275 calories, since that seemed to be the magic number. I have to get back in the exercising habit, so I have to make things enjoyable. So I did the step dance thing, and the "rhythm king fu" thing and the marching band thing, and the obstacle course thing (I WAS SO CLOSE *sob*).

Then for shits and giggles, I did the "cycling" game, and unlocked the longer course. And went, "Heh, let's try that!"

( OMFG MISTAAAAKE~. )

Time spent: 36 min
Calories burned: 161
Current BMI: 29.2

I have a new balance board! And it works wonderfully! This makes me happy.

Today was the first "Getting back to basics" day, and OMFG, I can feel such a difference doing exercise-exercise instead of "fat burning" exercise.

Mainly in that I am sore. I am very, very sore. My inner thighs are mutinying, and when the game suggested I could now do 30 jackknifes instead of 20, I went, out loud, no joke, "Oh HELL no!" Twenty is still pushing it and my abdominal muscles hate me.

Also, the game lies like a lying thing. I did the obstacle course thing and was nearly done, and apparently I jumped for real (I was mid-run when a log came at me). This makes the game force quit, admonish you, and start over. And when you start over, it does not count all the calories you burned before. So the "calories burned" is a lie. Bastard. I was SO CLOSE to beating the game; I will make it my bitch, oh yes. XD

I am sweaty and gross and when the game said, "If you feel tired, it's important to rest!" I took it as a sign. So the water for my bath is running, and once this is done I will go slouch in the bath and let my stress melt away. And hopefully some of the OW PAIN OW from actual exercise will melt away with it. XD

So the game tells me I have gained more weight--half a kilo, and I'm going >:( at it. And vowing once again to go back to the muscle training and yoga, since obviously that was what was working. But I am, to be honest, somewhat perplexed, and decide the sudden input of potatoes into my diet must be the factor to blame, sigh, and decide fiiiiine, no more starchy foods.

I start up the step dance thing, and it tells me "Please get off the balance board."

And I look at it blankly and go, "I AM off the board."

After several retries and finally getting it to register that I am not, in fact, standing on the board, I start the game, and it's making me as missing damned near everything. And I'm going, "...OK, you're broken. You are very broken. :/"

I have to go into Kyoto anyway, and I still have my receipt, so I'll try to get a new board and see if that helps explain the insane things it's been telling me, like the day it decided I lost nearly a kilo and a half (and the day I went, "You are FULL OF LIES") and why it's decided all of a sudden that I have chubbed up and my balance has gone to shit again. Hopefully, it's more a mechanical problem than me being full of fail. :/

Exercise time: 35 min
Calories burned: 157
BMI: 29.14
Feeling: Ow ow sore ow

So I realized today--I feel weaker. Or rather, I feel like I lost a lot of the progress I made--my scores are going down, and my balance is beginning to skew off again, and my weight has been staying pretty flat for the last two weeks or so. I'd been noticing this the last few days, but today seeing my bmi only going down .10 even after I busted my ass yesterday, it hit me--I was doing best not when I was thinking, "Oh god, gotta burn calories fast because I'm going home!" but "Hmm, what works best for my problem areas, like my weak inner thighs?"

So starting today, I started over--I'm going back to thinking, "What do I need to do for myself and to make myself healthier?" instead of, "What can burn the most fat the fastest on the slim chance it will appease my family?" The deadline hanging over my head was sapping the fun out of this, and turning it into a chore; filling me with dread and making it so I couldn't enjoy myself like I had been.

I will never make my family happy, ever, so, I wondered, why am I shooting myself in the foot even trying? This is for me, not to make people I will never be able to please. In their eyes, something will always be wrong or not good enough, so...wtf. Screw it and screw them--the only person I've got to please and make myself better for is myself.

Instead of all the jogging and random fat-burn exercises, I went back to yoga and weight training--everything I told myself I'd do after I got back from the US. And hoo boy, am I ever feeling it. x_X My sides are like *death* and my legs are like *death* and oh God, are my arms ever like *death*. Which I am taking as a good sign.

I will shoot for trying to burn at least 175 calories (I missed it today because d00d, my dinner was ready), but I'm not going to sacrifice shaping up my weak areas all for the sake of a number.

Exercise time: 1:19
Calories burned: 381
BMI: 29.17
Feeling: throat owie ;_;

So yesterday it was full of lies with the lying 28.83 BMI. And I knew it was full of lies. Today it jumped up to 29.27 and I went, "You are also full of lies today!" but the game insisted I justify my weight gain. I stuck my tongue out and said I ate dinner late. Which I had; my belly was still full of soup and a piece of cake I picked up because dude, chocolate. Everyone once in a while, you just need chocolate. :p (and I reweighed myself after exercising, figuring the sweating would counter all the food remaining in my stomach.

( Winter is evil for me. )

Exercise time: 0:00
Calories burned: 0
BMI: 28.83
Feeling: COUGH COUGH HACK HACK Bwuh...?!

I have been hopped up on cold meds all day. Not even kidding. The cold meds keep me from coughing, which keeps my throat from wanting to weep.

I had decided not to exercise today, for said cough cough hack hack ow ow reasons. And also I made more soup since all I want is soup and bread, and it hadn'T finished until after 9, and 9 is when I usually start exercising. But I figured I should at least turn the Wii Fit on and weigh myself, since as long as you do that every day it doesn't bitch at you. And in order to make sure I didn't do something stupid like figure, "Hey, since it's on, I can do a little something," what with the "I only feel healthy because of the cold meds" (and right on schedule, about ten minutes ago, just when I was thinking, "Hey, we're not SO bad off, maybe I should actually get some exer---COUGH COUGH COUGH oh shit, the meds are wearing off. Never mind!"), I left on my regular clothes (a sweater and a skirt) instead of changing into the T-shirt I usually exercise in (yay, living alone, where I can exercise in just a t-shirt).

So I got on the balance board, and told it I was wearing heavy clothes, and awaited my results. And saw them and went, "YOU LIE!!" when it said my BMI was 28.63. I went, "NO. No, you lie," and the game congratulated me on reaching my goal, but then warned me that sudden weight loss wasn't likely to last. And I was still going, "You LIE, that makes no sense." Then I turned the game off.

About five minutes later, I changed into my regular workout clothes and turned it back on, and said, "DO OVER." And this time selected light clothes and waited for a more normal response.

28.83.

Bwuar?

So I was like, "...OK, this still makes no sense. Maybe because I didn't eat dinner? Wait, but I did eat something, I had that giant, heavy bread thing from the bakery right after I got home because I was making soup and it wouldn't be ready for hours and I was hungry, and that was only two hours ago, only an hour before I normally eat. I am so confused."

I'm still confused, but hey. If it jumps back up some tomorrow, I will also not be surprised, because seriously, bwuh?

So I still think it lies like a lying thing, but hey. We'll see what it say tomorrow. XD;;;

Total exercise time: 1:04
Calories burned: 287
BMI: 29.07
Time: fine, aside from my throat feeling like someone rubbed it down with sandpaper

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I gained weight, and I REGRET THAT DESSERT YESTERDAY AND THE YUMMILICIOUS CHEESE RICE BREAD TODAY NOT ONE LITTLE BIT. *gives game the finger*

The game asked me, "What happened yesterday?" and I went, "I was sick! Fuck you! Be glad I turned you on today!" Considering I ran into a friend randomly when I was at the mall getting something for lunch (yay, the post office taking up my whole lunch hour--I had to stay an extra half hour to make up for taking extra time at lunch, but no way was I not eating lunch, and since I was already fifteen minutes over, I said "screw it" and ran down to the mall to grab some bread, since the conbini closed) and he took one look at me and went, "Hey, how are...you look kinda rough." I spent most of today wishing I was home in bed, but I have a deadline of this Friday for some evals, meaning no rest for me until it's done. Cold meds will get me through. Somehow. But anyway, I felt like death yesterday and I feel like death today. So I was expecting to only do about 30 minutes, when the game cheerfully informed me I gained weight. Not enough for it to bitch at me and demand an explanation for my lapse, but enough to make me grumble.

( Hopefully only four more hours to non ugly pig. )

Time Spent: 36 min
Calories burned: 137
BMI: 29.00
Feels like: uuuuuuuugh

Yeah, so, I'm sick. I caught something obnoxious and the doc only gave me three days worth of cold meds.

Cold meds, when it feels like a sinus infection. It would figure the one time I need antibiotics, they don't give them to me. x_X So my throat feels like it has been rubbed down with sandpaper, and I'm pretty sure I have a fever.

So needless to say, today was perfunctory at best--I mainly did yoga and some easy weight training exercises and some balance games, and tried the Jogging+ for the first time. Normally, I do the jogging, which is jogging in place for about 10 minutes. Today, I was like, "Ahaha, funny," to that, and went for the Jogging+, since it's the same thing only you're supposed to pay attention to what is happening on the screen since it asks you questions, and since I haven't done it before, I only have the short, 3 minute run unlocked. I figured three minutes, OK, I can do that.

It really does quiz you. It asked me what color the lighthouse on the screen had been, which cat ran by, and how many dogs had there been. I guessed right on the lighthouse, had no clue on the cats, and had actually counted the dogs since I figured that was a likely choice. XD

I did a new balance game--one where your Mii is in a penguin suit and is floating on a chunk of ice and you have to tilt the ice to catch fish. I am noticing a trend, here--first the chicken suit and now a penguin?!

Anyway, yeah, short workout and I'm about to either crawl into bed or play Fragile, since it kinda fell by the wayside with FF:gaiden.